|Taken with my cell phone- so it's not great....|
I had to have a talk with myself today about fear. Reminding myself that even though I am afraid of what is going to happen, that I can not let it zap all my happiness and energy for the next few months. I internalize my stress too- so, that would not be good for me. It would also make it harder on Ella and my family. So when I was at the grocery store at 9:30 tonight wondering why I felt like a zombie....I realize my fear today sucked all the energy out of my body. The irony of it is that I have always tried to make sure that fear does not get in the way of my happiness. Lucky for me skydiving wouldn't make me happy, but if I am faced with something I am trying to make a decision on I always TRY to take fear out of the equation. So, I am going to try harder not to let fear be in charge of my days, weeks and months.
I am an emotional woman. Talking about my feelings is 2nd nature to me. Someone commented to me that I should keep some things more personal, and I told them I have nothing to hide. If I don't wear my heart on my sleeve, how will anyone know where my heart lies?