Day 55

Ever feel like you really want to say something, but don't know what to say? It is interesting to watch people and see how they react to you. Another Cancer mom commented to me very early on that the one thing you find out real quick is who your real friends are. Those of you who are my close friends- don't start panicking. I am not going to look at our friendships and state that anyone hasn't been a good friend, but it has made me wonder if I have been a good enough friend. One friend had kids before me, and one did have medical issues. Ella having Cancer has made me wonder if I was there for her enough. I'm sure I had no idea what to say. Still being in my 20's and no kids of my own, I am sure I should have said more when  I probably said nothing. I ran into someone today that I know, and they looked at me, smiled and walked away. It made me wonder if they just didn't know what to say. On the other hand, there are a few people that I know- not well, who have bent over backward for us in the past few weeks. I think when something like this happens, you get to see who your real friends are and who has "real friend" potential. As we get older, I think it gets harder to make friends. In that aspect- kids are lucky.
A few friends have commented that they don't feel like they are doing enough- or that they are not being a good friend. To you my friends, I say the fact that you even think that- shows that you care. Nothing further is really necessary.  Steve and I are eternally grateful for every little card, email, and prayer for Ella and for our family- so thank you all.
Ella wanted her face painted today- so we did a kitty. We got outside for a bit and we walked around at the Huntley Mall. Her favorite lunch now is the cheese pizza at that mall- no other pizza- just that one. So it is becoming a weekly spot for us. As long as the weather stays this nice, I don't mind at all.

Blessings~Katie
P.S. I am sorry my friend if I didn't do enough for you.