Today I am crestfallen. It has been easy to forget that Ella has cancer. Just this weekend someone at church came up to me and said they were glad she was done. I had to let them know that she still has 5 more months plus a surgery. They were like "oh, that will be easy". Let me tell you- NOTHING about this is easy. One day isn't easy. Today Ella started losing her hair again. We knew it was a possibility, but I felt like she was doing so well, there was no way it would happen. It just seems so unfair, but what part of your child getting cancer is fair? She is so mad, and I can not blame her. She JUST started putting piggy tails back in her hair, and tonight I was just pulling hair off the back of her shirt like she was a shedding cat. I'm mad too. So much for it being "Easy"!
We are praying that it stops, and just thins out a little. Feel free to join me in this prayer.
Blessings~Katie
It will never be easy, will it? Ella should be mad. Getting her hair back was a sign of normalcy and it's not fair to take that feeling of progress away. She is almost done....almost feels far far away right now doesn't it? I'm hoping and praying that the shedding will stop and that she only loses a little hair - just enough to be symbolic that the chemo is doing it's job and then it stops (like no more hair lost at all!!!)
ReplyDeleteI told Kennedy yesterday about Ella too so she knows it is a possibility for her. I added to that - but that is okay because bald is beautiful, right? Thankfully she agreed - she thinks Ella looks like a princess with or without hair. I'm sorry you are going through this again - we are here for you.