I don't know why this year, it has bothered me more than others, but it has.
Six years ago today, I was at Costco when my phone rang and I didn't pick it up. I saw that it was Ella's doctor. We were not expecting results for 3 days. I knew it wasn't good and I didn't want to get this call while I was standing in the middle of a big box store. I got out of the store, and minutes later Steve was telling me what I already knew- Ella had cancer.
I know all the things to be grateful for. I'm staring at her right now and she is just smiling. But, some days are just harder than others, and today is one of those days. Steve came home to a torn apart and half painted office tonight. That was my therapy today, and my way to not think about the pain my daughter went through, our family went through.
Tonight, I just pray for the others and their families going through this right now. Cancer sucks.